It’s been a week since Cecylia’s port came out! She’s doing so great. She had no problems with the pain and I struggled to keep her activity down while she healed. She’s just playing, running, jumping, you can’t stop her. She feels good, emotionally, too. I didn’t realize how much she thought about her cancer. It seems, from her reaction and words, that this port removal really signified her healing. She’s been showing everyone, and I mean everyone, that her port is gone. Even a cashier at Target got to hear, from Cecylia, that, “my port is gone and I don’t have cancer anymore!” It’s been really great to see how good she feels.
I was just talking to my mom tonight about how I feel. I feel really good and am in a good place, emotionally, as well. Maybe it’s contagious. As I’ve said in earlier posts, I will always have a nagging at the back of my brain, but I’m doing a good job of staying positive. I think it would be naive to NEVER think about Cecylia’s future in terms of the challenges she may or may NOT face. But, it would also be silly and unfair to ONLY think that way. I would say I’m 90/10 when it comes to positive versus negative thinking. I feel good about that ratio, I think that’s pretty healthy (if I do say so myself)!
I’m off to work tomorrow to start the beginning of the school year stuff. Usually, that would be a reason to be a little sad. Saying good bye to lazy summer days with the girls! But, this year is so different. Last year, we were getting ready for Cecylia’s lung surgery, facing so many unknowns, and feeling so many fears. This year, we are gearing up for preschool, soccer games, and ballet lessons! What a difference a year makes. I’m so thankful to God for the many blessings we have right now.
Please keep praying that Cecylia stays cancer free. Please also keep all the other cancer kids in your prayers: the ones still fighting, the ones in remission, the ones just being diagnosed, the ones fighting side effects from treatment, and the siblings of all the cancer kids, too!